He Carries My Burdens

It is hard to believe that we are six and a half weeks away from our Lucy's first birthday. It blows my mind how fast it has gone by! It has been a long, hard year but one that has been full of lots of personal growth, growth in our marriage and in our family! The Lord has truly used our little girls life to teach us so many things! I truly understand what it means to fully rely on Him! I am not going to wake up one day and be "fixed" or "all better." I am healing by God's Grace! But healing doesn't mean I don't still hurt and miss Lucy like crazy!! The last week and half have been really hard...not sure why...maybe because her birthday is drawing near and I remember so much about this time last year!! Lots of tears have been shed over the last few days. I miss everything I won't get to do with my little girl. I miss her for Maggie! Watching my daughter miss her sister is so incredibly difficult!! My boys have talked about her a lot lately, too.  We all just miss her!

But with all these aches, pains and tears comes God's mercy.  His mercies are new every morning! Was craving his Word today and knew I needed to carve out a specific time to dig in! And oh how glad I am that I did. My bible study was about how God daily carries our burdens! Just like Psalm 68:19 says " praise be to The Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens."  He is so merciful and gracious and wants to carry this heavy load that daily I am bearing! Beth Moore writes in the devotional I am reading..."He is acquainted with every burden even before the bad news. Before the sun rises, He metes out His mercy in direct proportion to your day's needs. God desires to TAKE our burdens and GIVE His mercy!"  That sure warms my hurting heart!!

So tomorrow when I wake up and live another day missing my daughter,  I am going to lay my burdens at the foot of the cross and let my Jesus pour his mercy and peace all over me! And then I am going to count all the blessings that I DO have!!