Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Overwhelmed

I love the song Overwhelmed by Big Daddy Weave. And that's what I'm feeling at this moment as I siT in the room with Luke waiting for him to be discharged. We have been here for 4 weeks and three days! It has been a long, exhausting and sometimes scary road. This was not the road I expected to take with this pregnancy! I thought surely since I buried my daughter I would have an easy pregnancy(as easy as it can be after suffering a devistating loss) and easy delivery. I had served my time of suffering! Well, as we all know we are not in control! The Lord saw fit for us to be thrust to our knees again! I wish I could say that's what I did but I didnt. I was too scared to. I told a dear friend of mine this. She said, "The Lord wants you to be honest with him. He can take it. This is when you rely on other people praying for you!"
And I absolutely did! And slowly over the last 4 weeks and 3 days he has been drawing me oh so near to him! He has spoken to me through dear friends, sweet messages, songs, the mountains outside the NICU window, the amazing staff and nurses and in my quiet times. And through my precious Luke!

22 months ago we walked out of this same NICU without our daughter! We left with empty arms and broken hearts! But today we leave with full arms and mended hearts! How thankful I am that the Lord has blessed us with this precious baby boy! I'm overwhelmed!

Overwhelmed by Big Daddy Weave
(Just a few of the verses)

I see the work of your hands
Galaxies spin in a heavenly dance oh God
All that you are is so overwhelming

I hear the sound of your voice
All at once its a gentle and thundering noise oh God
All that you are is so overwhelming

I delight myself in you
Captivated by Your Beauty
I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed by You

God I run into your arms
Unashamed because of mercy
I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed by You

I know the power of your cross
Forgiven and free forever you'll be my God
And all that you've done is so
Overwhelming

I delight myself in you
In the Glory of your Presence
I'm overwhelmed, I'm overwhelmed by You