It's hard to believe that a year has gone by. When the calender page turned to October it stung! In my mind we had entered "Lucy's month." Maybe it will always be Lucy's month to me...I don't know...and that's ok! She made a mark on this world, and it makes her Mama very proud! So, here we are. We made it to our little girls birthday. We have made it through all the "firsts." I didn't know how in the world I would feel today. The last 2 weeks have been incredibly hard. (There might have been some kicking and screaming!) but today has been quite peaceful. I spent almost the entire day surrounded by friends. I know that our family was smothered in prayer.The Lord heard those prayers and filled me with peace!
I feel like my "word" for this year has been sovereign. I have clung to the sovereignty of our Lord. He is in total control and nothing he does is for harm. It is all meant for good and to further his kingdom. But why does it have to hurt so bad? Well, for me it has been in the deep pain that I have felt him so, so very near. Because as we know..."Jesus wept." He felt pain and he hurts for us! But he can also see the BIG picture. I am thankful he is so BIG!!
So, as I close this day out I end it with a thankful yet sad heart! I am thankful for my daughter that made a mark on this world! I am thankful for dear friends that have walked this hard road with us and loved us SO well! I am thankful for a husband that has loved me unconditionally! I am thankful that we have made it one year! But most of ALL I am thankful for Jesus!
Monday, October 27, 2014
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